bittersweet

Today is a day I've been wanting for a few weeks now, Cheyenne is going to be sleeping in her crib from now on.. I know I know... she should have been in there a long time ago, but there have been obstacles that kept pushing this back. But anyway, she's going in her room starting tonight, and even though I've been bugging Jason to get the window treatments done so I can get her in there and finally get my room back, now that the day is actually here... I'm a little sad. My little baby is going to be all alone in that room.. she wont be able to roll over and see me lying there next to her... I wonder if she'll even notice?

Up to this point she's been sleeping in her pack n' play next to my bed, and I was just about 6 inches away from her. Part of me really wants to go find another excuse that she shouldn't be allowed to sleep alone tonight.. but I know that we both need this to happen. She needs space away from mommy, and I need to be able to lay in bed at night and watch TV without worrying about it being too loud and waking her up. But I can't just lean over and check on her anymore... I want my little baybay back!! I'm having a little anxiety attack about it... can you tell?

But on the upside, now I can get my elliptical back, which is in my bedroom, and hopefully that will help speed this weight loss along. I've decided its no longer ok to weight almost the same amount as I did when I was 9 months pregnant, so I started weight watchers again. It worked wonders for me last time, and now I'm back at it again and so far doing great! I've lost 6 pounds in a week! I really can't weight to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, and hopefully my pre-Jason body!! haha

I got an app for my phone now to update this so there should be some more regular posting going on, be sure to check back. I'll update on how tonight goes... that is... if I don't cave and bring Cheyenne back into my room with me =)