Now, on the eve of Cheyenne's first Easter, as I sit here putting together her Easter basket and listening to Jay snore on the couch ( =O) ) It hit me...
Mommies and Daddies are no different than two people (hopefully) in love with each other. They are the same as boyfriend/girlfriend, husband/wife, your best friend and her husband... They are just regular people! When I was a kid I never realized that my parent's were in love with each other! Don't get me wrong, they always showed each other that they loved each other, when my mom got sick my dad was hopelessly devoted to helping her, but at the time that she passed away, I was only 10, so it never dawned on me that my parent's were in love with each other, probably because I didn't really understand love at that point.
So I sit here... Cheyenne upstairs asleep, my wonderful husband on the couch across from me, and I realize... Wow... One day Cheyenne is going to look at us as just her parents... but we were two people in love before we were ever parents. And while one day she will think that we have all the answers, and will only really think of us as "Mommy and Daddy".. I'll be able to look over at my husband and smile, because we both know that we have NO IDEA what we are doing, we are learning as we go, just as I'm sure my parents were... and we are unconditionally in love with each other... just as I'm sure my parents were...
And although I thought I couldn't possibly be anymore in love with anyone other than Jason... it seems like Cheyenne has taken that spotlight. Even when I met Jason, and knew that I was head over heels in love with him, now that Cheyenne is here, it kinda seems like I had no idea what love was until I met her.
Weird... how you can go from man and wife, to daddy and mommy in, what seems like, the blink of an eye, and you have this tiny little thing depending on the both of you to stick together, and work together to make sure she has the life she deserves to have... when in reality, before she ever came along... you were two people who fell in love...
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| Me and Jay about a month after we started dating... |
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| About 2 months before we got pregnant... |
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| 5 days into parenthood!!! We don't look like parents do we? Just two people in love that happen to be holding the best thing to ever happen to them!!! |
Love this! Happy Easter!
ReplyDeleteYou were making Easter baskets thinking deep thoughts and I was making Easter baskets thinking about the "Mommy curse". For all holidays I like to make sure that the people I love feel special and appreciated which usually translates into thoughtful gifts. As well meaning and wonderful as my husband is - this is not his same train of thought so every holiday I am struck by the "mommy curse" - no gifts in my stocking, no Easter basket for me, no card on holidays, but I do get that precious little smile and the "love you Mommy" so I guess I make out better than most!
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